older

> i''ve turned a year older.

> yes i'm 19....sad to say. hehehe. okay fine it's 23

> aging for me is just numbers you add to your current age

> for documentation purposes like what i say.

> aging i think is not directly proportional with maturity,

ideally one should mature when one grows old,

> but what does maturity means?

> according to merriam dictionary: having completed natural growth and development ( their talking about the phsyical features) > but for me maturity comes with the decision you make

> you may be 16 but if you make the right choices or you stand by it and takes full responsibility with what you do in life i guess that makes you mature

> turning 23 and it seems to me that nothing changed i feel i'm still my old self 5 years ago. i do have this touch of childishness and child likeness combined

> i've been through a lot and still facing more, but still there is a yearning for more experience, more knowledge and more searching...

> still looking and searching...still waiting..still growing

> i guess there's a lot of room for maturing, cause everyday we are faced with decisions that would make or break us

> it is just a matter of choice and how we stand by this choice that we made

> i'm older, i guess wiser and a lot better than before

moving on.

i consider myself a veteran in the field emotional combat. i guess i've been through alot (but not all) the hassles and turmoils (emotional once again) one could experience. and one thing i have learn is that one should always know how to move on. because dwelling in the past would just mean hurting your self. i remember a quote from Frederick Nietze ( i'm so sorry about the spelling of his last name ), i think his somewhere from Europe..and i love his quote...and here it goes " what doesn't kill you makes you stronger", true.

you learn from your experiences, yes and no. i've heard this way back when i was a child. but still i do stumble with the same mistakes. ( and i'm not stupid ) maybe sometimes we really don't learn...it's like when you fall in love, after a break up you'll say to yourself that you'll be smarter the next time...but sometimes love just blinds you from certain reality and you still do those stupid mistakes... but you don't have a choice but to move on.

but before one can move on, you need to confront and face the issues your at. i think it is part of the moving on process....don't run from it. as long as it won't kill you...don't run. just face it.
still young, maybe on your perspective they might be petty but their mine for the judging.
experience. face it.learn from it. then move on.
that's life.